Welcome to the fat neck thyroid club for underactive thyroid gals....
Anxious? Me? Never…
Oh well, maybe just a little bit!
This whole chemo rollercoaster has turned my life upside down and inside out. OK. I am cancer free. But being cancer free also makes you a nervous crazy wreck. Every lump, boil, mole or pimple is potential cancer. You start sleeping and thinking about a reoccurrence. You get googleititus and become a hobby doctor on every aspect of your cancer. Your friends find you boring as you suddenly start passing off your knowledge on to them and every fag, shot or hot dog they eat – you start to preach about eating “clean”.
But, I am not here today to talk about my anxiety. I have joined the fat neck club. Nearly five years after my cancer diagnosis I get thyroid problems and am likely to be on hormones for the rest of my life.
How did I know I had thyroid?
Well, life has been a bit of a bitch recently. I work out every day. I swim, I cycle and I snort out a bit of a run. I eat like a queen buying the best of the best for my delicate stomach. I can hold a plank for 2 minutes… but yet… I was getting fatter and fatter and fatter.
I am now just short of my pregnancy weight with my pre-pregnancy weight being something I doubt I will ever attain again. Although my fingers and toes are crossed that I do!
So, basically. With and underactive thyroid the more you diet or eat raw food or workout the fatter you get. I even went on a 1200 calorie a day diet and put on 1kg. Then I did the juice detox and put on another 1kg? The only sanctity that I have, is that I now know why I was getting bigger when on a diet and that diets are now banned.
Anyway, the hormones have made me a bit jumpy. I am not used to them and am feeling a bit strange. I am not sure if I am here or there actually. My head spins, my hangovers after 2 glasses of wine are much worse than before and I fear I am neurotic.
On that happy note. ….
I hope my newly developed big fat neck will become my new best friend as we tackle this thyroid problem together X