So take a look at me now....

One year ago today I entered hospital to have my lymph nodes removed and my breast margins cleared.

I felt as if my world, my life, my love life and everything else was over for me. I thought I was going to die and thought about jumping out of the window.

It wasn’t selfish. At the time, I didn’t want my kids to watch me die; I wanted them to remember how I lived.

 

 

But that is what happens to you when the cancer bomb descends.  Your emotions make for a Molotov of fear, rebellion and accidental Hedonism.

 

One year on, I want to say – “take a look at me now!”

I will never be totally in the clear, I have a very very aggressive and bad cancer and I will have to be on my toes forever.  I still have a 5cm lump on my liver that is being watched as well as some other problems – but hell.... with what I have been through that is a walk in the park!!

Last night I managed to organise an Indian fashion show with 18 girls and with over 200 visitors in Seeheim.  It went amazingly and everyone congratulated me.  Hardly anyone knew I had cancer and it felt great.

If I can do it..... so can you.

Don’t give up. Bena

Comments

[Paul M. Watson]

Amazing, Bena, just amazing.

[bena roberts]

Why thank-you Paul. Very nice to hear from you, Bena

[Ajay sharma]

Looking good, but you look better with glasses! ajay

[mona]

Bena! You look fantastic! I'm so happy to see this beautiful picture. Love you and miss you and think of you every day. xoxo Mona

[bena roberts]

Mona - thank-you! You can see all the pictures here: http://www.facebook.com/topic.php?uid=124869030878992&topic=969&post=7823#!/album.php?aid=262089&id=500894274&page=2

[Olivia Gibney]

Hi Bena

So lovely to see your happy smiling face - you look fantastic. Well done for coming out of such a horrible experience with such a positive attitude. I'll have a look at the pictures in the link you sent to Mona. Hopefully we'll be able to meet up sometime soon.

lots of love, Olivia xx