Your life has many narratives. My story seems to change and from having no time to participate in my kids activities because I was so sick; I have now become part of the parent teacher association at our school and also organised a fashion show for the Partnershafts Verein in Seeheim.
Charity work or helping when others can’t seems to be my strength right now.
I say this now that the fashion show is over. When working on it, I realised how people can be extremely unreliable. How, people, if they don’t have cancer or have had it; really don't understand you.
I feel as though I have changed as a person and every day I try and be positive despite the constant pain and reminders that I face – because of my chemotherapy.
Saying that, life is brutal and some of the ways in which the Indian girls in the fashion show were to me during this time will remind me not have nostalgic feelings for my roots. I am as English as English can be. Cancer is tough and if you are strong, those who are not familiar with cancer treat you the same as everyone else. People need to realise that recovering from chemo is VERY hard. Complaining you have a cold to someone that has just had chemo and radiation is not going to go down well, especially when they are battling daily with tough drugs and symptoms.....
(Bena takes a deep breath!) Sorry. But sometimes people are clueless.
But right now, I am very happy. You live and learn and the papers are full of our Indian show. We have pictures in www.der-bergstraesser.de and here http://www.echo-online.de/region/darmstadt-dieburg/seeheim-jugenheim/Indischer-Abend-verzueckt-die-Seeheimer;art1301,1402412
There is also a great article in which I feature and I simply love it. It was worth it and I am seriously considering retiring from working altogether to concentrate 100% into charity work for my very rare type of metaplastic breast cancer.
I believe in destiny and maybe, I have found my calling?